Delirium Tremens And the Darkness Within

The shakes start up again as I knew they would
'The Fear' slowly creeping up on me
Stalking me like a hunter on its quarry
There's never any way to fight them
My options are die or embrace

I consider both options carefully
Weighing up the two paths
As i lay in the darkness shivering and quaking trying to make the choice
She pops into my thoughts
Scattering every other thought like a morning mist

Do I give up on everything I've fought for to get to this point
And go back to living every day in quicksand while she tries to force me out
Is it worth living if there is a possibility of falling short of the goal
Is death the easier option, the sweet release

Will they all be waiting there
The loved ones I've lost in the past
Will I then wait there for more loved ones to join us in the future
Or is it worth is to live, for her, even if I cannot be with her

The tremens are strong now
It is time to decide or I may leave it too late
Groaning with pain and effort I roll over to my side
The image of her face is burned deep into my minds eye
Looking to my left is the darkness of the whiskey and the painkillers
Ready to hold me to this mortal shell should I so choose

With her face in my mind
I make my decision
Open the bottles
My concoction of hypocritical life
As her beautiful smile twists and contorts into the grinning face of the Jetser